I can’t kiss you or hug you. I can’t rock you to sleep. I don’t hear your sweet voice and won’t watch you grow.

You don’t feel pain or sadness. You sleep atop the clouds. You fly beside the angels and live inside a dream.

I cry. I cry and I wait. I wait for the day I can hold you again and tell you how much I’ve missed you. I try to be ok but nothing is the same now that you’re gone.

You run. You run and you play. You play and you laugh and you delight in all that a boy should enjoy. There are no limits, no fears, no inabilities for you now.

I heal. I am forever broken and missing you, but I will remind myself that you are good and safe, and I will heal.