I've always considered myself a fairly confident person. I'll find someone to talk with in a room full of strangers, I don't get nervous speaking in front of a crowd and I handle interviews with grace and composure. But now, as a thirty-five year old woman who is starting to notice more lines appearing on … Continue reading Celebrating small wins
happiness as looking forward to waking up every day rather than looking forward to going to sleep at night
My aunt and I both joined the worst club on the planet in 2015 - we both lost a child. We are now grieving mothers, parenting children in Heaven. Each day we manage to take one more step forward without our sons and each day we live with holes in our hearts and empty rooms … Continue reading Grieving together
I made the choice to bring you here I kept you warm and held you near I sang you to sleep every night When you hurt I held you tight I kept you safe above all cost Without you all I feel is lost I planned the years I'd watch you grow So much of … Continue reading I’d give it all
Every mother remembers her baby's first word, the first tooth, the first step. Some babies walk at nine months old, some at twelve or even fourteen. Many mothers worry when their baby's development isn't "typical" or takes longer than average. And those worries are totally normal, completely rational and only indicate that you, as a … Continue reading Milestones
"You have to select your thoughts like you select your clothes." Come Monday morning, both feel like impossible tasks! This was a quote I heard when I was idly flipping through the channels the other afternoon. I quickly realized it was a cut-down, cable friendly, commercial-ridden version of the movie "Eat, Pray, Love" which I … Continue reading Selecting thoughts
Still lyin’ here, eight months in and winter’s coming fast It was wintertime when he arrived but seems like longer’s passed Friends are lighting candles and people swear to me they pray But driving miles to see my boy makes believing harder every day Daddy told me ‘God is kind,’ he only gives what one … Continue reading Love song to my preemie
Another quote I borrowed from the memoir I'm currently reading, Drew Barrymore's "Wildflower." She describes how she read it on a friend's wall and she thinks about how it is an admirable quality in those who are constantly and consistently making the choice to be happy, despite life's most treacherous obstacles.I too admire those who … Continue reading Happiness is a choice
The most comforting words I heard at my son's funeral service were, "What was his personality like?" It was a dear friend from years ago I had not seen in over a decade. She obviously had never met my son and I am not sure she was even aware I'd had a child until she'd … Continue reading Please ask
Relationships are more work than any other effort we make. Jobs, if you're fortunate, take up roughly forty hours of your week and pay for your basic needs and a few luxuries. But relationships; friendships, marriages, family dynamics; are difficult, emotional, but rewarding lifelong efforts. I've thought a lot about relationships over the last few … Continue reading Empathy
Parenting Angels 