I made the choice to bring you here I kept you warm and held you near I sang you to sleep every night When you hurt I held you tight I kept you safe above all cost Without you all I feel is lost I planned the years I'd watch you grow So much of … Continue reading I’d give it all
Tag: faith
Milestones
Every mother remembers her baby's first word, the first tooth, the first step. Some babies walk at nine months old, some at twelve or even fourteen. Many mothers worry when their baby's development isn't "typical" or takes longer than average. And those worries are totally normal, completely rational and only indicate that you, as a … Continue reading Milestones
Selecting thoughts
"You have to select your thoughts like you select your clothes." Come Monday morning, both feel like impossible tasks! This was a quote I heard when I was idly flipping through the channels the other afternoon. I quickly realized it was a cut-down, cable friendly, commercial-ridden version of the movie "Eat, Pray, Love" which I … Continue reading Selecting thoughts
Love song to my preemie
Still lyin’ here, eight months in and winter’s coming fast It was wintertime when he arrived but seems like longer’s passed Friends are lighting candles and people swear to me they pray But driving miles to see my boy makes believing harder every day Daddy told me ‘God is kind,’ he only gives what one … Continue reading Love song to my preemie
Happiness is a choice
Another quote I borrowed from the memoir I'm currently reading, Drew Barrymore's "Wildflower." She describes how she read it on a friend's wall and she thinks about how it is an admirable quality in those who are constantly and consistently making the choice to be happy, despite life's most treacherous obstacles.I too admire those who … Continue reading Happiness is a choice
Please ask
The most comforting words I heard at my son's funeral service were, "What was his personality like?" It was a dear friend from years ago I had not seen in over a decade. She obviously had never met my son and I am not sure she was even aware I'd had a child until she'd … Continue reading Please ask
Empathy
Relationships are more work than any other effort we make. Jobs, if you're fortunate, take up roughly forty hours of your week and pay for your basic needs and a few luxuries. But relationships; friendships, marriages, family dynamics; are difficult, emotional, but rewarding lifelong efforts. I've thought a lot about relationships over the last few … Continue reading Empathy
Not that I’m counting
I am making huge efforts to move forward, make progress, continue to live and breathe without my son. But I cannot escape the fact that today is Sunday the 22nd. He died eight months ago on Sunday the 22nd. Even writing the words, "he died," is difficult, surreal, impossible. I've been waking up to silence … Continue reading Not that I’m counting
Choosing to parent
I wish someone could have explained to me the heartbreak that parenting involves. Take the worst disappointment, the worst heartbreak, the worst rejection and the worst pain you ever had in life...combine each of those feelings and multiply it by a million. That's what parenting feels like every day. There is no worse worry on … Continue reading Choosing to parent
Every mother needs a wife
"Every mother needs a wife." I've stolen this phrase from the hilarious and brilliant Amy Poehler. It's in her book "Yes, Please" which I recommend to anyone who likes to laugh, those who've concluded that life is hard even if you are beautiful, gifted, intelligent and funny, and all women who need other women. This … Continue reading Every mother needs a wife
Parenting Angels 