I am a mother, grieving the loss of her son. We fought from the day he was born for his three years of life. I no longer get to fight that battle. I lost. We fought so hard and we lost him anyway. It's been almost a year and my wounds have not healed. I … Continue reading Learning how to win again
Category: Healing
For Aunt Amy
"Cause honey your soul can never grow old, it's evergreen" - Ed Sheeran To my dear Amy Louise - my soul sister, my spirit guide, my guardian angel, Thank you for letting me splash in fountains on hot summer days, feeding me cookies for breakfast, letting me spray paint pumpkins and be as silly as … Continue reading For Aunt Amy
On your birthday
I imagine you running. Your hair is thick again, and cut clean like Daddy liked it. You're wearing your favorite Minion T-shirt and Puma sneakers. You look so good and so grown up in new glasses, but you don't need them. You're giggling. Someone you love is making you laugh. Everyone we've loved and lost … Continue reading On your birthday
That feeling
I find myself struggling with this impossible battle of the highs and lows of grief. I've heard some compare it to the waves of an ocean and have myself likened it to a tsunami. But lately, as hard as I try to move forward, find meaning, get better, I'm starting to wonder if maybe grief … Continue reading That feeling
A reason to grow
As I continue to navigate the never ending journey of grieving the loss of my son, I have begun exploring my preconceptions and convictions relating to religion and spirituality. Without truly understanding, and knowing it's most likely beyond my comprehension, I feel that my sweet baby is not far away and that we have a … Continue reading A reason to grow
YOU matter
Don't be afraid to dig deep because you're unsure of what you'll find. The space between your heart and soul can be reached within your mind. Hurt can only be healed if you're willing to really feel it. Your character is so very strong, I promise no one else can steal it. What you … Continue reading YOU matter
Celebrating small wins
I've always considered myself a fairly confident person. I'll find someone to talk with in a room full of strangers, I don't get nervous speaking in front of a crowd and I handle interviews with grace and composure. But now, as a thirty-five year old woman who is starting to notice more lines appearing on … Continue reading Celebrating small wins
Defining happiness
happiness as looking forward to waking up every day rather than looking forward to going to sleep at night
Grieving together
My aunt and I both joined the worst club on the planet in 2015 - we both lost a child. We are now grieving mothers, parenting children in Heaven. Each day we manage to take one more step forward without our sons and each day we live with holes in our hearts and empty rooms … Continue reading Grieving together
I’d give it all
I made the choice to bring you here I kept you warm and held you near I sang you to sleep every night When you hurt I held you tight I kept you safe above all cost Without you all I feel is lost I planned the years I'd watch you grow So much of … Continue reading I’d give it all
Parenting Angels 