I had a moment to breathe, look up, and wonder in awe at the beauty of our Earth. As I laid on my back, staring up at the afternoon sky after a brief thunderstorm, I thought of you in Heaven. Though I know you are there and not so far away, when I stared at … Continue reading Pieces of Heaven
In the eighteen months since losing my son, I've navigated grief by tirelessly running my body and brain, hating the world and everyone in it, blaming myself, and trying like hell to find ways to heal. The journey is endless and the path is dense and crooked, but I continue to search for answers that … Continue reading Praying for roadkill
Everyone has their 'people.' Those special few you can count on in a crisis, those who speak truth even if it's hard to hear, those who remind you of your strength when you feel weakest. If you're lucky, and work hard at your relationships, offer kindness and empathy, then you are probably someone's 'person.' One … Continue reading ‘People’ vs. ‘Friends’
I lost my necklace. My necklace, the one I wear every day. My necklace, the one with my sweet baby's initials. My necklace, the one that my girlfriends gave me on my first mother's day after I lost him. My necklace was gone. I was leaving for work and had almost forgotten to put it back … Continue reading A tiny triumph
F*** Cancer. The only two words in my journal one month after I lost my three-year-old son. Of course, in my journal, the word was spelled out in capital letters across the whole page. It was the only thought I could express that day. The only feeling I had. Feelings of sadness, anger, helplessness, against … Continue reading Thoughts on Cancer
Without my sweet angel in Heaven, so many blessings I have today would not have been introduced in my life. My angel, though I would give anything to have him here with me on Earth, watching him grow, relishing every sweet moment of his existence, is helping me to live happy each and every day. … Continue reading An angel’s magic
There's more than one answer to these questions pointing me in a crooked line The less I seek my source for some definitive The closer I am to fine - Indigo Girls https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=HUgwM1Ky228 I believe in what I know because I have faith. When I start to ask the big questions, I remind myself that, … Continue reading Lyrics to love: 7.8.16
I will readily admit I am not the most self-motivated individual, especially in regards to fitness. I was an active kid, involved in every sport I could try, and played competitively through college. But as an adult, fifteen years, four abdominal surgeries and about twenty pounds later, activity is a little tougher than it used … Continue reading Close to you
If you are anything like me, when you get even a short breath, a moment without tears, a minute of relief, you will start to grasp at anything to not feel the pain of grief. Because the pain of grief is unlike any other hurt, or ache, or sadness. You can't relieve the pain of … Continue reading To those grieving
Ain't no man, a man that can change the shape my soul is in There ain't nobody here who can cause me pain or raise my fear Cause I got only love to share If you're looking for truth I'm proof you'll find it there -Avett Brothers https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zz0JXbwNUk8 My dreams, my soul, my angel … Continue reading Lyrics to Love: 6.30.16
Parenting Angels 