F*** Cancer. The only two words in my journal one month after I lost my three-year-old son. Of course, in my journal, the word was spelled out in capital letters across the whole page. It was the only thought I could express that day. The only feeling I had. Feelings of sadness, anger, helplessness, against … Continue reading Thoughts on Cancer
Without my sweet angel in Heaven, so many blessings I have today would not have been introduced in my life. My angel, though I would give anything to have him here with me on Earth, watching him grow, relishing every sweet moment of his existence, is helping me to live happy each and every day. … Continue reading An angel’s magic
I will readily admit I am not the most self-motivated individual, especially in regards to fitness. I was an active kid, involved in every sport I could try, and played competitively through college. But as an adult, fifteen years, four abdominal surgeries and about twenty pounds later, activity is a little tougher than it used … Continue reading Close to you
If you are anything like me, when you get even a short breath, a moment without tears, a minute of relief, you will start to grasp at anything to not feel the pain of grief. Because the pain of grief is unlike any other hurt, or ache, or sadness. You can't relieve the pain of … Continue reading To those grieving
I had a crazy chance encounter today that reminded me what a small world it truly is. I ran into an old friend I hadn't seen in over ten years. She is someone I knew very briefly, but remember fondly, and we had lost touch after living in different cities and taking separate paths. But … Continue reading Nothing’s changed
The day after I wrote my last post, I received a very clear message from my sweet angel. I believe if we open our hearts and the energy of our "soul magnets," our loved ones we've lost will send us messages. Some may say it's the desperation of a grieving mama. But a dear, true … Continue reading The language of the universe
I'm still here, right where you left me. Right where I've always been. Right where I'll always be. I know, you know. I imagine you playing, running, enjoying the sunshine, and playing ball. And blowing lots and lots of bubbles. Then every once in a while, or maybe more often than I realize, you hear … Continue reading Hi, baby
Well, will they? What is the point of writing if it will never be read? Will a tree make a sound when it falls if no one is around to hear it? The answer...I don't know. Will your life have an impact? Will your work influence others? Will what you say make a difference in … Continue reading Will anyone read this?
It has been a tough week and I was letting my grief, among other things, overwhelm me. I have been angered by situations beyond my control, frustrated by unfavorable outcomes, and sad that I was allowing my emotions to cloud my logic. Today on my drive to work, I decided I was going to treat … Continue reading I am more powerful than grief
I hear those two words too often these days. "Don't be...sad." I'm a loss mom. I'm sad always. I will never hold my baby in my arms again and the only relief I have from that grief is the belief we will someday be together in Heaven. I will be sad. "Don't be...angry." Your energy … Continue reading Don’t be…
Parenting Angels 