I stopped to fill up my gas tank on my way to work today. My 'E' light had been on since my trip into work yesterday, so I couldn't procrastinate any longer or I might be stranded on the freeway. After I swiped my card and began filling my tank, I overheard the man at … Continue reading Pumping gas
I am not an active parent. My baby is in Heaven. But I can relate to this article, and I think many other moms, women, jugglers of life, will too. The Business Mantra That Transformed My Parenting Philosophy Have you ever sat down and made a 'pros and cons' list before making a big decision? … Continue reading Article: The Business Mantra That Transformed My Parenting Philosophy
I remember being ten years old, standing, arms raised, left toe pointed in front of me, poised, confident, balanced. I would throw my arms upward, flip blindly backward, and land firmly on a four inch wide beam. Poised, confident, balanced. Lately, I feel like all I am doing is flipping blindly and falling hard. My … Continue reading Balancing
I realized tonight, at 36 years old, I am an old woman. No, I have not lived a full lifetime. But what is a lifetime? For my son, it was only three years. For my grandma, it was cut short at 66. If I lost anyone in my life whom I treasure now, whether it … Continue reading I am an old woman
Tomorrow marks my second Mother's Day as a "loss mom." A mother, mothering her baby in Heaven, not on Earth. A mother who is still a mother, but who has no child here to wake her in the morning, kiss her goodnight, or need her. Mother's Day is a reminder of all I have lost … Continue reading The mothers in my life
Somehow, my sweet angel, you always know when I need you most. I would give my whole heart and everything it holds to have you here on Earth, but the ways you touch me from Heaven make living without you somehow survivable. Knowing that someday, somehow, if I keep believing, if I keep remembering, if … Continue reading When I need you most
Most life lessons I've learned have come from hardship and tragedy. It seems that's just how life works. And I certainly would not have the wisdom of forethought, the appreciation for goodness nor the ability to approach challenges with logic and reason had I not had those experiences. I've learned that life isn't fair. You … Continue reading Life lessons
How can happiness and hurt coexist in the same heart? Why, when the happy happens, does the hurt always manage to squeeze its way in and take up space? Will there ever be a time where I get to have a heart filled with happy and the hurt fades away? As a grieving mother, I … Continue reading Happiness and hurt
It takes too much energy to be angry. It's exhausting being sad all the time. I just wish I could live happy. It's not just a wish. It's a goal. I want to live happy. I try to achieve it every day. I strive for happiness by surrounding myself with positive, good-hearted, selfless people. I … Continue reading Live happy
I got the opportunity to talk about my son today to a new friend who has only seen him in pictures. She asked about his story and how we lost him, then apologized for bringing up a 'sore subject.' I immediately asked her not to apologize and told her the subject of my son will … Continue reading This life
Parenting Angels 