I wanted nothing. Because giving, helping, assisting someone with something, anything, feels so good in its own right.
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Big brother
Time heals. So they say. My heart will never truly heal from the loss of my only born son. But since his loss, I have gained. I have gained the love and admiration of friends and family for the way I have handled his loss. I doubt this, often, and I tell them so. But … Continue reading Big brother
Grieving gracefully
I have been a bereaved mother for 2 years, 3 months, and 6 days. My sweet baby, my first, and only born son, has been in Heaven for 829 days. These days have been filled with a suffering and a longing I never knew existed, tears I never knew could fall so steady and streaming, … Continue reading Grieving gracefully
A heart big enough
You know those flashbacks you get from the photo sites? The ones that will sporadically email or alert you with a little message, "Flashback: Here's what you were doing last year on this date." Super fun. Maybe, for some. But for me, I keep getting them at inopportune times. And for some reason, they always … Continue reading A heart big enough
Call it what you want
History or legend, fact or fiction, there are millions of stories written in books, told through generations, shared through song, that help solidify beliefs in a higher being and an afterlife. I read or hear or watch people's journeys with faith, and to be honest, I often judge. Every person's belief system is their own, … Continue reading Call it what you want
How can I not be?
I am a neurotic parent. I worry about everything. I take the phrase 'helicopter mom' to a whole new level. I am a psychotic, overbearing, strict, insane parent. How can I not be? I've been trying to figure out another way since the day I was blessed with my second child. He is a beautiful, … Continue reading How can I not be?
No one would know
I am the proud mother of a sweet angel in Heaven, taken from me two years ago at only three years old. I am the busy mother of a three-year-old angel on Earth, gifted to me from the Heavens through foster care. No one would know, just by looking at me. I am in constant … Continue reading No one would know
Help me
I want to be the mama I was to you. I want to be loving, patient, sweet and kind. I want to love unconditionally, laugh in every moment, appreciate each test for the strength it teaches me, and know every moment, though sometimes tiresome or frustrating, is an absolute and beautiful blessing. Please, sweet angel, … Continue reading Help me
The little things
I find myself getting caught up in the stress of every day life. I forgot how hard it is to balance parenting, work, marriage, a home...and grief. The days can pass by so quickly when the morning consists of rising early, feeding and clothing a toddler, trying to get to preschool with no tears and … Continue reading The little things
Let the wonderful in
Holidays can be hard. Holidays are hard. This time of year is work. Juggling commitments, forcing cheer, being without my baby. The most wonderful time of the year can be the worst. Unless, you let the wonderful in. Take a deep breath, get a good lung-full of wintery air, and let the wonderful in. Yes, … Continue reading Let the wonderful in
Parenting Angels 