I can't kiss you or hug you. I can't rock you to sleep. I don't hear your sweet voice and won't watch you grow. You don't feel pain or sadness. You sleep atop the clouds. You fly beside the angels and live inside a dream. I cry. I cry and I wait. I wait for … Continue reading You & I
I have been selfish. In the last week, I have been so concentrated on controlling my temper, trying not to cry, distracting myself from the fact that the one year anniversary of losing my son is just days away, and replaying the last days I had with him. I have been coping. I stay quiet … Continue reading Small world
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=jSFLZ-MzIhM I believe we are all connected; maybe by rainbows, maybe by music; but if we are lucky, we have people touch our lives with love and light every single day. This song is about those connections. I used to sing it to my son, and sometimes I still do, knowing that even though … Continue reading Lyrics to love: 3.13.16
If I said aloud every thought that went through my head, I would be a very bad person. Today alone, I wanted to scream during almost every interaction I had with another human. I am angry and bitter, hurt and resentful. I tell myself not to judge others. It's not right and it's not fair. … Continue reading My inner monologue
How is it possible I've lived without you for almost one year? I lived almost thirty-two years never even knowing the possibility of you and three years holding onto the hope that I would have you forever. That hope is gone, replaced with faith and with patience I will hold you again. Some day. But … Continue reading Carry on
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=nIjVuRTm-dc "It's not always rainbows and butterflies, it's compromise that moves us along." A good friend once said to me she felt like compromising just seemed like both people losing. Relationships are hard. But without the people in our lives that love us and support us when we're at our worst, we really would be … Continue reading Lyrics to love: 3.8.16
I interrupt. It is a fault of mine and it has been pointed out to me. I do it when I am not understood. I speak out of turn and I interject thoughts before others are able to complete their own. I realize it is a quality that needs improvement and I realize it can … Continue reading Listen, breathe, respond
I woke up today with a heavy, aching sadness. It's a feeling I've learned to accept, and some days I can push through, see the positives, be thankful for my blessings. But today, all I felt was the absence of my son. And it hurts so, so much. I drove all the way to work, … Continue reading Taking a day
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QUQsqBqxoR4 Today's lyrics to love accompany the post 'Five reasons I'm awesome.' Be brave, be confident, and love who you are. There's no better way to be.
If you are reading this, I want you to write down five reasons you are awesome. I was thinking (while on my first "training" run for a 5k I am going to try to complete in a month) how we as women, mothers, wives, and partners, so often depend on the reassurance of others for … Continue reading Five reasons I’m awesome
Parenting Angels 